Posting more often

Today, I am going to update my blog with two new posts, here is the first part:

This week is a very important week for me. First off, I have a horse show this coming weekend!
Now, right now I am working with horses for a wonderful farm. Though it is long hours in the hot Missouri summer, it is amazing. Working with the horses, and seeing them grow and improve is an amazing experience. I've been riding since I was 9, and like any young girl, was horse obsessed! This weekend, I get to ride my favorite mare, Lizet, in the show. I feel a bond with her that I have only felt with one other horse before. It is the amazing feeling of being on top of the horse, and feeling like you are one. The horse knowing what you want almost before you do. So, needless to say, I am pretty darn exited for this show ( and I place 1st 3 times in the last show)

The other exiting news is on Thursday the 14th, I'll be celebrating my one year anniversary with my wonderful boyfriend, Cole. This past year has had it's ups and downs, with more downs then I care to remember. But, to use a quote by Marilyn Monroe
" If you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best"
That is how I feel about this year. We have seen eachother's good sides, as well as the bad, and we are still going strong.

To use myself as an example: I am a messy person, it is somthing I have always know and tried my best to deal with. When I first moved in with cole, I obsessively cleaned everything. But, as a trend with me, books and clothes started migrating from the bedroom and around the house, until it got to the point where is became a big issue, I am still messy,  and I'm sure I will always fight it, but I am honestly trying to put my best foot forward and for Cole's sake and my own, try to keep clean. It's a funny thing, going through my old stuff, it's great to see all the memories, but it is also so cathartic to purge unused things.

Cole has seen my bad side. He is well acquainted with messy, insecure, over-emotional, and sometimes passive agressive me. And you know what:

He's still with me.

We both have our faults, but with communication and support, we an help eachother though it.

This anniversary is also very important for me because, though I still have a lot to learn, I am an adult women, living miles away from my family, and I have been decently successful  and have created a life for myself I truly enjoy.

The TV show smash said it so well on the season finale:

"And if something good can come from badThe past can rest in peace."
Bad things happen, it's the nature of life, but when the good out weighs the bad, then hold onto whoever, whatever, gives you that happiness.

Commited relationships at the age when most people are just "Hooking Up"

I have personally never really believed in hooking up. That being said, it's not like I have not hooked up in the past, but it was never something I sought out specifically wanting. My first relationship, I mean legit relationship, started my freshman year of college and lasted 2.5 years. I am a big fan of monogamy. When I am with that person, I am with only them. I can understand women and girls 16-25 really liking the appel of hooking up. Hell, it's no string attached pleasure with the plus of not getting emotionally attached and hurt. But, as many studies show, When you are physically intimate with someone, you can't help but be attached to them. My first time was with a very good friend. I trusted him and "just wanted to get it over with" even though we were never romantically involved, I'll always have a fondness for him. Good or bad, hooking up experiences change women. My big question is this: If you are college age and just have fuck buddies, are not monogamous, How do you expect to have a committed exclusive emotionally involved relationship in the future? If you are so accustomed to being emotionally detached with the person you are intimate with, How can you be expected to have a traditional healthy relationship? Not saying that all women who hook up even want a legit relationship, but most, at some point in the future do.

Another big issue I find with today's society, is there is almost a social stigma of being in a committed relationship at a younger age (ie pre-25) . When I was in college, at a small liberal arts women's college, I often felt ostracized by most of my peers. Because, they would be spending Friday and Saturday nights at frat parties, and I'd be spending mine spending catch up time with my boyfriend, who I only saw on weekends. It almost put a rift between me and my friends since I did not have the same mentality as most girls my age.

Now, being 22, other women at catching up. I have a score of friends engaged, but then again, here in Missouri, it's a bit of the norm. in a large city, or with my friends in Cali, not so much.

A little bit more about me

Hello dear readers!

I am a 22 year old women living in Central Missouri Currently. Though, I have lived many places. I was born in Bucharest Romania, lived in Lake Bluff, Il until I was 7, lived in Palos Verdes, CA for 1 and a half years, Woodland Hills, CA for 5 years, Ojai CA for 4 years, Columbia,MO for 3 years, Buffalo, NY for 6 months, then back to Missouri! So, as you can see, I'm quite well traveled! I originally moved to Missouri to get my BFA in theatre, and moved back because I missed the people and town. Once I moved back, I met my current boyfriend. We have been together for almost 9 months and have lived together for 8 of those months. My goal for this blog is to keep myself writing on a semi regular basis, and express my opions about love and relationship and society's view on love and relationships, based off my personal experiences.

I look forward to writing and hope you enjoy reading!!!



Annie